everyones faces distorted
i love this ride that it gives me
meaningless and truthful words it drags out of everyone
Are they real or not
Ive had an epiphany

home

Reality bites
its not pretty, or lovely, or even a bit happy
Living where i live often shelters people too much
nothing bad really happens here so no one really realizes what the worlds really like.
his story of that house full of homeless teens reminded me of what i used to know
ive never had to go through that but i knew those places existed
ive seen a lot more than ive ever told anyone
not one person knows every thing about me or the shit ive had to put up with in my 16years.
I forgot about that reality cuz i havent dealt with it in quite a long time...

and everyone seems normal-er

idk when i feel like talking to him about it for some reason i feel like its not worthy to tell anyone of my past..but for some reason i think he'd understand more than anyone...its sooo easy for me to tell people i barely know the things ive gone through, but people im the closest to, its just soo hard for me to open up. which is kind of fucked up but its like i dont want them to know things ive gone through and then every time they look at me think of those things.
i like babbling..

ive never been THAT girl
the girl who is someones everything
who holds the key to someones heart
or the girl that someone loves so much they would kill for her
it sounds stupid but i want to be that girl for someone
ive never had a guy say i love you to me
i..want to be worth it for someone

yess back to the familar
theres nothing like home

aww its like watching the grass grow waiting for it to come to life
i know you have so much in that mind in yours yet you wont even let me in..
frustrating. In my head I make up the dialogue of what i want to say to you
but i cant seem to tell you what im thinking im holding myself back because you are too.
i only give as much as you give to me. plain and simple. ugh unfortunatly for you i dont give up on people
i love challenges..
well good nite world

heart lesson#3
the heart is resilient, I mean literally. When a body is burned, the heart is the last organ to oxidize. While the rest of the body can catch flame like a polyester sheet on a campfire, it takes hours to burn the heart to ash. A near perfect organ! solid, inflammable
Heart lesson#4
the unrequited heart.
you cant make anyone love you back

Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendor in the grass, of glory in the flower
We will grieve not, but rather find
Strength in what remains behind.

my feelings are there
your someone else but im still right here
my sweetest friend youll go away in the end
but you could have my heart in the mean time
id walk a million miles just to see you talk
who am i to you my sweetest friend
what have i become thats got me feeling readable
sweet summer nights my walls are on fire
children surround us the sun is laughing and i want to walk around with you

summer;)

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You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." -Bob Marley

"Bang" "Bang"

I think we are the right age to start our own peculiar ways

9 is the number that comes after 8, which represents infiniti
9 is past the infinite, the mystery that cannot be explained in the world, all things extremely good and extremely bad. the inside of a black hole, nine. space, nine. bottom of the ocean, nine

o' johnny C.

I hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focused on the pain the only thing thats real
the needle tears a hole. the old familar sting
tried to kill it all the way but i remember everything
what have i become my sweetest friend
everyone i know goes away in the end
and you can have it all..

Ita almost like you just cant hold your breath for any longer
or keep that pace of safe
never back down
thats what ive been told
no more he said she said shit
this worlds so ignorant

nuclear warfare is underway
no place for children, run believe me you'll be ok
my haven is anywhere your not im a strong believer in something
stop this stupid system of changing your mind i hate that you say everything will be fine
never have i been so happy because i know we will all float on ok

constant rumbling in the night sky

constant rumbling in the night sky
searching your hand for that missing sign
lost your love, that heart it breaks
Move on move on let me speak
never have you been so happy but i know the truth i know your story
cant go on without your vice, but what can u do with a past that hasnt been so nice
i love that for the first time I cant predict the future
i have no idea where youve been who youve loved I dont know your weaknesses your strengths your worst day
but thats ok because only a few thing are related to the old times
i see your inside

All the little people are smoking
and weve been out here all day working
i never knew you liked it
They spit you out when they were done teasing
The butterfly got scorched in the bottom wasteland
They all had different colors they know what your thinking
Some say follow my ways and the others well i just dont know
All the little people are smoking

...

ive got a dark alley and a bad idea that says you should shut your mouth

my god. that is everything

homes have stopped being homes. Now they are real estate