dont you worry

The arcades on fire wouldnt you want to know
Take it easy this thing we got goings natural
I dont get played therefore play the game
Say the words i want most..my ears are uh itching for them to be said
Im the train now its time for the departure
candy covered kisses charming their way up to my neck
Lifes about to change
Were all losers so lets lose ourselves together
The valley im bound to is french and they know whats its about
Lifes about to change

kinda tired of partys
its the same old shit every time
uhh someone needs to shake it up a bit eh?

snort.drink.pop
never knew this was like getting shot
snort.drink.pop
just hold me until we stop
snort.drink.pop
waiting for the words that got me on lock
snort.drink.pop
unrequited love has got me on the rocks
snort.drink.pop
the only way to deal the only way to talk
snort.drink.pop
and i say good morning to midnight

just a quote

"People keep telling me that I fall in love too easily- that I should protect my heart, that I shouldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve… I fall in love at least 20 times a day. I fall in love with the sky and the sun and the flowers and my children. I fall in love with smiles, with music on the radio and with french fries and Dr. Pepper. I fall in love with the sound of laughter, blue jeans, accents… Sometimes I fall in love with complete strangers, especially the ones holding hands and kissing in public. The ones who aren’t afraid to be in love with the idea of being in love either. I don’t mind the pain of unrequited love so much, because I think they’re wrong. Love looks good on me."

Human relationships were strange. i mean you were with one person for a while, eating and sleeping and living with them, loving them, talking to them, going places together and then it stopped. then there was a short period when you weren't with anybody, then another woman arrived, and you ate with her and you fucked her, and it all seemed so normal, as if you had been waiting just for her and she had been waiting for you. i never felt right being alone; sometimes it felt good but it never felt right.
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Nothing was ever in tune. people just blindly grabbed at whatever there was: communism, health foods, zen, surfing, ballet, hypnotism, group encounters, orgies, biking, herbs, catholicism, weight-lifting, travel, withdrawal, vegetarianism, India, painting, writing, sculpting, composing, conducting, backpacking, yoga, copulating, gambling, drinking, hanging around, frozen yogurt, beethoven, back, buddha, christ, TM, H, carrot juice, suicide, handmade suits, jet travel, new york city, and then it all evaporated and fell apart. People had to find things to do while waiting to die. I guess it was nice to have a choice.
I wanted the whole world or nothing.
-Charles Bukowski

music

my music wishlist
their cell-girl in a coma
airplanes- Local natives
too much in love- the king khan & BBQ show
my body is a cage- arcade fire
La vie en rose- Louis armstrong
try me- james brown
psychic city- yaht
single fins and safetly pins- japanese motors
effie beast-rhizomes
Warpaint- billy holiday,elephants
Goldfrapp-strict machine
christina perri-jar of hearts

everyones faces distorted
i love this ride that it gives me
meaningless and truthful words it drags out of everyone
Are they real or not
Ive had an epiphany

home

Reality bites
its not pretty, or lovely, or even a bit happy
Living where i live often shelters people too much
nothing bad really happens here so no one really realizes what the worlds really like.
his story of that house full of homeless teens reminded me of what i used to know
ive never had to go through that but i knew those places existed
ive seen a lot more than ive ever told anyone
not one person knows every thing about me or the shit ive had to put up with in my 16years.
I forgot about that reality cuz i havent dealt with it in quite a long time...

and everyone seems normal-er

idk when i feel like talking to him about it for some reason i feel like its not worthy to tell anyone of my past..but for some reason i think he'd understand more than anyone...its sooo easy for me to tell people i barely know the things ive gone through, but people im the closest to, its just soo hard for me to open up. which is kind of fucked up but its like i dont want them to know things ive gone through and then every time they look at me think of those things.
i like babbling..

ive never been THAT girl
the girl who is someones everything
who holds the key to someones heart
or the girl that someone loves so much they would kill for her
it sounds stupid but i want to be that girl for someone
ive never had a guy say i love you to me
i..want to be worth it for someone

yess back to the familar
theres nothing like home

aww its like watching the grass grow waiting for it to come to life
i know you have so much in that mind in yours yet you wont even let me in..
frustrating. In my head I make up the dialogue of what i want to say to you
but i cant seem to tell you what im thinking im holding myself back because you are too.
i only give as much as you give to me. plain and simple. ugh unfortunatly for you i dont give up on people
i love challenges..
well good nite world

heart lesson#3
the heart is resilient, I mean literally. When a body is burned, the heart is the last organ to oxidize. While the rest of the body can catch flame like a polyester sheet on a campfire, it takes hours to burn the heart to ash. A near perfect organ! solid, inflammable
Heart lesson#4
the unrequited heart.
you cant make anyone love you back

Though nothing can bring back the hour
Of splendor in the grass, of glory in the flower
We will grieve not, but rather find
Strength in what remains behind.

my feelings are there
your someone else but im still right here
my sweetest friend youll go away in the end
but you could have my heart in the mean time
id walk a million miles just to see you talk
who am i to you my sweetest friend
what have i become thats got me feeling readable
sweet summer nights my walls are on fire
children surround us the sun is laughing and i want to walk around with you

summer;)

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You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she's not there." -Bob Marley

"Bang" "Bang"

I think we are the right age to start our own peculiar ways

9 is the number that comes after 8, which represents infiniti
9 is past the infinite, the mystery that cannot be explained in the world, all things extremely good and extremely bad. the inside of a black hole, nine. space, nine. bottom of the ocean, nine

o' johnny C.

I hurt myself today
to see if i still feel
i focused on the pain the only thing thats real
the needle tears a hole. the old familar sting
tried to kill it all the way but i remember everything
what have i become my sweetest friend
everyone i know goes away in the end
and you can have it all..